Lost Letters

''u dont belive me wen i say too softly...u never listen wen i dont say at all''

oh how things change...they always will...funny,i miss ya...i sound drunk maybe i am maybe im not...maybe i always bin...but this is beautiful,,,always been...i miss u now...the way u used to smile in pictures...today and now...now or never..i wish u wud stay...i wish i cud make u...but yet again,aazar had been wasting time...or so it seems...

u just be happy...i will be too...u know its all like a letter...it will never get there...u wud never get here...but i am happy if ure happy wherever u are...keep smiling...dont quit smokin if u dont wanna...dont if it makes u happy...u die more everyday anyway..we all do...we live wen we know about it all...

i miss u now and the way u used to sing...now i know u wont...this is crazy...doesnt make any sense now does it?But it duz...could we have gone another day other than any other way,,,??i dont know i dont know...

all i know is that ure happy wen ure nto alone so dont be

taht way..i wann see u smile and walk thru the graveyard and yet...feel alive...i am just a boy...ure not just a girl...ure something else...ure evrything anyone could ever want...im wide awake at this hour i could go on and on about the time to come but u'd rather hav it unreel and let someone else complete the story for ya...i will just leave it this way for aazar cant do a thing about things he really cares about things that he feels and things he wished he were...u were right..it will go away too fast...but the taste still remains...bitter and sweet at the same time in my mouth like a ciggy butt...wich is ur brand?watever it is it goes up in smoke does it mean anything?does it kill ?hurt?decay?

at times iam thnking we are like a birthday cake they light up,cut apart,consume and forget...oh well,,aint everyone the same?oh how we wish we were...how i wishi was...i shidnt hav slipped into this..this skin is too tight..im at a loss for comfort...i cant give none and i wont take it away either...love.........